i am in this state of dreaming of happy futures and living in sad todays

love is supposed to be the best thing out there but for me it’s the worst

honestly i want to give myself bad bruises and take pictures of them as they progress

i don’t know where this whole hurting myself thing came from

i want to get punched in the face, get a nosebleed, and make out with someone so my blood rubs off on their face